week six

team unity.... need i say more? this week has by far been one of my most challenging weeks. and not because we have gone (as a school) from strictly text book information to a whole new level of being spiritually and emotionally challenged, but also God has been revealing so many things in my heart that need to change...

i’m not even sure how to put into words all that went down this week. our lectures were full of content doing with not only working as a team, but majority of what’s going on in our hearts thats preventing us from committing and being part of the team.

i think a main difference from DTS to this school is that in DTS you are so spiritually challenged and so ‘forced’ into relationships with your school mates that you have no choice but to open up and become a close knit family with the others in your school, and here in BAS we showed up and began classes and did some ‘get to know one another’ things but in comparison to DTS not nearly enough. i think it left a lot of our school feeling a little distant from each other. not saying we don’t get along, we all get along actually really well. there has been no drama or interference in personality's, and we have a lot of fun together, but because this is YWAM i was expecting (in my opinion) to be on a deeper level with each other by now.

i realized for myself i have a lot of past hurts that have impacted the way i make my relationships now and i need to be able to let that all go in order to become committed to each member of my team. which is especially important since we will be spending 8 months together!

okay so apart from the emtionalness of this week we have learnt another fact about our school. so when we were told of our outreach locations we were also told that there was a possibility that there would be a third option in which after the six months in Africa our team will split. we just recently were told what that would look like, in which ten of us (and two leaders) will head to India and the six others (one staff) will be going to Bangladesh. we have been told to pray about it and report to our leader what we feel God’s direction is... i am torn.... not yet sure what to think. but i’m sure we’ll be finding out in the up coming week or so exactly where it is i will be heading. it makes me a little sad that our school will be splitting up after spending nine full months together, but i also think its neat that we get to expand our work and train and help even more women!

well thats all i got for now! not much planned for the weekend, last weekend we ended up not going to kangaroo island (times didn’t work out) but instead a group of us went to a beach on sunday, where it was very windy and quit chilly, but very beautiful none the less! i think this weekend calls for a little R&R so thats what i’m gonna do!
till next time....